Fears, I have a lot of them. These are just a few.
1. Spiders. I am deathly afraid of spiders. It doesn't matter if they are big or small I'm scared of them.
2. Roller Coasters. I can handle the ones that swirl around or loop but I'm scared of large drops. Ray always tells me it's a waste of money to take me to amusement parks. Hopefully the girls will join him in thrill seeking when they are older.
3. I fear that I am projecting my insecurities and self conscience tendencies onto my girls. I don't want them to ever feel less beautiful, smart, funny, etc than they are.
4. I am afraid of losing Ray or one of the girls. It's to the point where I obsess over it and dream up scenarios of how I would deal. I don't know if I'm strong enough to endure a loss like that.
5. I fear I'm not the mother I should be or could be.
6. I have a fear of being in an airplane crash. I say a silent prayer every time I board a plane and a prayer of thanks every time I land safely. I know the odds are against me but I could be that one in a million and it frightens me.
7. I am afraid of becoming too worldly. It's so easy to become caught up in the things of the world and forget what's truly important. I want my girls to know that the most important things are our faith and our family.
8. I am afraid of losing my faith, of losing something I've worked so hard to build.
These are my top eight fears and if I thought about it more I could probably come up with many more but I think this will do. Up next is my 7 Wants. I'm going to try and make the rest of them consecutive. Here's hoping!
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